I yelled at my kids today. I’ve made a goal not to do that and today I failed. But tomorrow I’ll pick up the pieces and try again. Some days are just really hard. I have this cold I’m fighting off so I’m already a bit tired. We spent the weekend away at a funeral for Taylor’s grandpa, so the kids are tired and emotional too. Something snapped in Ashton this morning and he decided he didn’t want to go to school. He laid down on the floor and whined about how he wasn’t feeling well and that he didn’t want to go to school. Somehow I got him there. I imagine school was just fine. When they got home, things were okay for a little while, until the homework started. I hate elementary school homework. I hate it so much. I’m sure I’ll hate middle school and high school homework too, but elementary school is the worst. The kids are at school all day and then they have to come home and do homework. Trying to get a 6-year-old to do anything is already not an easy task, but when it’s homework, we’re all doomed. And today’s homework was something that he misunderstood, so I had to correct him. He didn’t like that. He kept telling me that it is okay to get some of the problems wrong. Fine. But stop screaming at me. And the whining. I’ve had enough. He’s a smart kid. He doesn’t need to spend all afternoon on homework. If he would just not whine about it, he could have it done really, really fast. It’s the same with getting dressed. Finally it was time for cello. There was whining about the position the back of the seat was in. I had had enough. I pulled over and yelled at him. And I threatened him. His cello lesson went well. Maybe because of the threats. We came home and the homework saga continued while I made dinner. Thankfully I made grilled cheese for dinner so there wasn’t any whining about that, but it did take London 45 minutes to eat 10 carrots. Seriously. And I was frustrated, so I yelled again.
But now I sit here writing this while Ashton is reading and telling me about dolphins, looking at me with those big, blue eyes, and I realize all is forgiven.