To Disneyland or Not To Disneyland?
Posted on Saturday, May 30th, 2009 at 8:13 pm
That is the question. We have been planning, for the last couple of months, a trip to Disneyland as soon as Taylor was finished with school for the semester. Grades are due on Wednesday so Disneyland is following close behind. But now I don’t know if we’ll venture up there. The fate of our trip to the happiest place on earth lies soley in the hands of a three year old. It would be an understatement to say that London’s really excited to go. I made a sticker chart for her soon after we brought Ashton home and told her that once she earned 35 stickers, we would take her to Disneyland. She could earn a sticker for being nice to Ashton. She quickly earned about 30 stickers. Now as the date comes closer, she loses more stickers than she earns. I guess part of it is my fault. Now she not only has to be nice to Ashton, but she also has to be nice to me. I guess that’s just too much. I’m getting so sick of the whining and crying every time she doesn’t get exactly what she wants that I’m wondering if the Disneyland tickets will have to be handed of to a more deserving child. I really want to go so I’m doing my best to help her be good. For some reason, my best is not enough and I’m beside myself trying to figure out how to have a peaceful home. The only way I can imagine this happening would be to ship her off to somebody else’s home. I really do love my children, but sometimes I don’t like them. I know that’s a horrible thing to say, but when London is in the middle of a fit (which happens multiple times daily) I really don’t like her. I just keep praying that I’ll be able to help her, and in the process, help myself deal with her.
Kiersten, I know we’ve only officially met in person one or two times, but can
I just say, I love you. I love how honest you are, because it makes me feel so
much more normal. I read other blogs that talk about how much fun they have
with their children, and while I do have fun with mine, most days of this past
year in 3-year-old land have been miserable, and I do find myself not liking to
be around my children (while still loving them, of course). I escape in the
evenings whenever possible. And then I feel bad, like it’s my fault and I’ve
created this out of control child (who happens to be an angel for everyone else)
. I was such a good two-year old mom, but I am NOT a good three-year old mom.
I will say though, as we’re approaching Mylie’s 4th birthday in a week, that I
think there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. Even though I’ve felt as though
we’ve made NO progress with all of the rule setting, and emotion coaching, all
of the sudden, I see little glimmers of hope. Maybe it is just a phase, like
all the other ones, and it’s not a life sentence. It’s just this phase has
lasted so much longer that I forgot that they’re always changing into new little versions of themselves. Anyway, I
just wanted you to know that you’re in good company, and thanks for keeping
things real.
Sorry about the formatting – not sure what caused that.
Whoever called it the terrible TWO’s? I think it should be something like the THUNDERING three’s! I so hear you, sistah!
Kiersten and Karli, I LOVED your post/responses. Don’t feel bad, we all feel that way at one time or another!!! Aaron is my challenge, it is mainly because his attitude is JUST LIKE MINE. Oh the horror
I completely agreewith Bree. Every book I have every read says that 2 is bad and 3 is good, but from my experience it is completely opposite. Every three year old I have seen is bad, most of the time.
I completely sympathize with you and wish you luck.
We are currently planning a trip to DL for november.