Kiersten’s Blog

I will hit my 9 months pregnant mark on Tuesday.  Of course the last month is always the longest, just because it’s SO uncomfortable.  I have a feeling, though, that it’s going to go by too fast.  I’m just not ready for another baby yet!  Here I sit with the little guy tucked under my ribs and my back hurting, not being able to bend over or tie my shoes, but I’m not feeling like I want him out of my body yet.  Okay, I want him out.  I’m done with being pregnant, but I’m definitely not ready for what happens once he leaves my uterus and makes his debut.  I’m not ready for the sleepless nights.  I’m not ready for the recovery.  I’m not ready to be in labor.  I’m not ready for a 3 year old little girl to be yelling at a baby because he’s crying and she can’t stand it when babies cry.  On top of all this, I still don’t know what his name will be, nor do I have a place for him in our little apartment.  The crib is still being housed at my in-laws.  I have been collecting baby boy clothes here and there, but I’m pretty sure I don’t have the “stuff” I need.  Honestly, I don’t even remember what that “stuff” is.  I feel like I’ve never done this before!  Or maybe sometimes I feel like it’s been too recent because when I think about actually giving birth, I really don’t want to deal with that again!  I also worry and think of everything that could go wrong because last time, I thought everything would just be perfect (because, of course, I was doing everything right and by the book) and I wasn’t prepared for a child with a birth defect.  I learned quickly how to deal with it, but what will surprise me this time?  Will he be able to nurse?  I don’t know how to do that.  It will be a whole new experience.  I’m sure everything will turn out just fine but for now, I just don’t feel ready.  Maybe I never will.

This is a re-post from a blog I posted a couple of weeks ago.  I have had no less than 75 spam comments on this single post so I had to take it down.  It almost makes me want to go back to my old blog with no comments.  Anyway, here it is again in case you missed it.

The picture has nothing to do with the post, but I couldn’t resist.  This is what London looks like at this exact moment.  She fell asleep coloring…again.  That’s twice this week and it’s only Wednesday!

Most mornings we go for a walk with some friends and end up at the park right next to our apartment complex.  None of the friends could make it today so London and I went alone.  When we got to the park, there was another girl about London’s age who had just gotten there with her nanny.  The nanny put the girl on the swing and pushed her then said, “I’m going to go get your brother out of the car.”  London wanted to swing so I pushed her for a bit.  When “Girl” slowed down a bit, she asked me to push her to.  I did for a bit, but I’m 8 1/2 months pregnant and not really feeling like watching someone else’s unsupervised child.  I suggested she get off the swing and go on the slide.  She thought it was a good idea.  I looked around to see where the nanny was.  She was rollerblading around the park.  Rollerblading?  Isn’t that for 12 year olds?  Nanny had to be in her early 20s.  Girl followed us around, playing on whatever London wanted to play on while Nanny rollerbladed and texted.  “Where was little brother?” you ask.  I have no idea.  In the car, I guess.  London and I were at the park for a good hour.  When we left, Girl was still hanging out alone while Nanny rollerbladed.  At times like this, I wish I knew how to get ahold of a parent.  Does the mother know what’s going on here?  Doesn’t the nanny realize that there could be a pedophile hanging out, ready to snatch up the talkative 3 year old little girl?  Does she care?  Maybe I’m a little over protective but I definitely want my daughter to be safe!  Plus, she needs someone to play with.  She needs someone to push her on the swing.  I’m so glad I can be a stay at home mom and take care of my own children, rather than having some nanny with rollerblades and a cell phone supposedly watching them.

I "borrowed" this picture from Dana. I would have a picture of the little guy in it (since I have this) but he's not around to wear it just yet!

I’ve kind of been thinking about this a lot lately.  I love browsing Etsy.  There are some really great items people sell and it amazes me what people really do make.  There have been so many times, though, that I think to myself, “I could totally make that.”  And really, I probably could.  I never considered myself crafty but lately I have been finding projects that are do-able for me.  For example, I don’t usually buy hair bows for London’s hair.  I’ve figured out how to make them so she wears homemade bows.  Okay, not all the time because she doesn’t always wear bows, but most of them are made by me.  Anyway, I’ve come to the conclusion that I really can do a lot of things if I try.  Here’s the problem.  I can do things, but sometimes it takes a considerable amount of time.  I have two friends with Etsy stores; at least two friends that I know of with Etsy stores.  They make adorable things.  In reality, I could probably make what they make.  BUT I’m sure I couldn’t do it as well or even make it worth my time.  Maybe if I used my time more productively it would be worth it, but I have come to the conclusion that these women do a fabulous job at what they make and I can buy some pretty cool things from them without me having to take the time to do it myself.  You should go check them out!  Littletowheads.etsy.com sells hand embroidered t-shirts and onesies, as well as photo prints, magnets and cards.  Wynkenblynkenandnod.etsy.com sells adorable crocheted items, such as hair barrettes and baby toys and blankets and sweaters.  I haven’t bought from wynkenblynkenandnod.etsy.com yet but as soon as I figure out which one of those adorable barrettes London will wear the most, I will.  I have some things from littletowheads.etsy.com and I can’t tell you how adorable they are!  I’m so excited for the little guy to wear his onesies.  Anyway, Dana at little towheads is having a mega giveaway right now on her blog here.  You can win items from her store, as well as wynkenblynkenandnod.  Also, if you refer a friend, you get $5 off at her store.  So if you go buy something, tell her I sent you!  I want the $5 off!

I have a new nephew!  My baby sister, Brittany, just gave birth to her first baby!  She had him on Friday and was finally able to see some pictures of him (that I stole from her husband, Kirk’s, facebook page) today.  He’s adorable and I’m so excited for the new parents.  I can’t wait to see him!  Actually, I can.  It will probably be a while since my baby is also coming soon!  But what fun for us to both have boys so close together.  London remains the oldest and only girl of the 4 (almost 5) grandchildren my parents have.